An Everyday Battle

No matter how much I’ve tried, avoided and removed it from my system, I still feel for it. It hasn’t even been a year … I’ve learned my lesson that I shouldn’t be falling for a friend, for there will always be moments that you’ll start to expect that there is something more, yet in the end there isn’t anything at all. What you thought was nothing else but a pathetic dilusion in your head. Move away the moment you realize that you feel something else before you fall so deep that you cannot stop yourself.’ Painful, yet it’s for the better. I have to continue with my life….

I was sorta thinking of this when the year started, and two months later, I still haven’t done it.

I thought of writing a story which will just be seen in my tumblr site since most of the stories I write are just in my notebooks and almost no one reads them (my friends used to, but now they don’t).

So maybe, if all goes well with my studies, I’ll start this summer. I already have the concept in my head. It’ll just be short I guess. I just want to have a shot at writing again. Studies made my creative writing skills kinda rusty.

That is all. (Still working on my report for tomorrow.)

Just a theory of what I am to a person by the way they call me…

Lotus-most call me by this way. Formal and usually bihirang maging close sa kin throughout my life.

Lot-close, as in super close. Madalas mga relatives and friends.

Tus-childhood nick name, but some people still call me this. Ngayon, yan ung mga taong tinitake advantage ako.

Lots- tinangal nila ang ’u’ sa name ko. yan ang tawag nang mga taong madalas feeling nila na super close kami pero hindi naman.

Lottie-usually an endearment name, pero konti lang ang pinapayagan kong tawagin ako nang ganyan, lalo na pag napapangiti ako nang taong yun.

Report, shiftings, research, presentations…. Tired, but have to hang on. Will update stuffs tomorrow since it’s a holiday here. …hey, if you see my face would you still know my name?